The struggle continues

I haven't felt this low in a long time. I can't believe my body is trying to yet again kill me. You figure with my stomach is knots and not being able to keep much stuff down that I would be losing weight. Yesterday I had the endo bloat which resulted in me looking 7 months pregnant. I finally reached out to my doctor. Everyone always says, why don't you just go see your normal doctor, or just go to the hospital. Well let me drop this down a notch. If I go to my regular doctor she will not understand Endo and make me out to be a moron. If I go to the hospital then they will again be uneducated in the disease and just push morphine. Dr. M has helped me when I have fallen down and was giving up hope so here he comes again to sweep me up. I honestly thought after the hysterectomy that this would be the end of ally problems. I can't believe how naive I was. This stupid beast is rearing it's head and attaching itself to whatever I have left. So off I will go for yet another surgery. I am a pro at this. I know this low that I am feeling will surpass, but for right now I am just exhausted. Waving the white flag....