33 before 33

I will get to the headline shortly, but here I am my last day being 31. This time last year I was cancelling my trip to the Dominican, and finding out I had to have a hysterectomy. Both were two huge decisions that I never wanted to really do at the time. It hasn't been an easy year. After my hysterectomy I was out of work for 6 weeks. A little over 2 weeks was unpaid so I had that going for me. I have felt off for a few months after it. There was one week where I was at home crying, I was looking at the dilauid and the Appleton estates rum and thought to myself why not? I can't have kids, I'm fat, no one want me, I'm in debt up to my eyeballs, and what more do I have besides Slob and Max. Well, I hit my LOWEST point. I actually was going to do it. I haven't told a soul, the only person that knows (well now the cats out of the bag) was a kind voice from the hotline I spoke to. I know I'm not the only one that has been there. Having this chronic illness can effect everything from your body to your mind to your heart. I became a hobbit for the months passing. It wasn't until this year that I actually started coming out of my shell. Yes there are times I am like FML but I will never ever try to hurt myself. I may not have a giant amount of people in my life but the few that I do have care and I would not want my cats to be homeless. The entire time I was thinking about Poppy. I thought that what would she think? How would she remember me? I know she is not my child but I care for her so much that I want to be there for her when she needs someone. Anyways that was how 31 went for me.

So to explain the whole 33 before 33 thing. I was laying around after vacation thinking that I need to do something, so I started making a bucket list of things to do before I'm 33. I took out the breaking a piece of wood with my head because I don't need any more surgeries. I just think it would be fun to do these things. After I do them I will cross them off my list. I actually just got my palm read tonight so that is off my list. Maybe I am starting a yearly tradition but whatever it may be, here's to the next year of my life, whatever it may be.

33 things to do before I'm 33- in no particular order 

1.Swim with wild pigs

2.Run a 5k

3.Go without makeup for 2 weeks 

4.Take voice lessons 

5.Skydive

6. Finish a 1,000 piece puzzle 

7.Go to Canada 

8.Get another tattoo

9.Ride in a hot air balloon

10.Knit a scarf 

11. Drink a gallon of water daily for a week

12.Have my palm read

13.Learn how to sew a button

14. Learn to love myself 

15.Go wine tasting 

16.Make fresh pasta

17.Learn Spanish 

18.Unplug for 48 hours 

19.Achieve my happy goal weight 

20.Ice skate

21.Fly in a helicopter 

22.Watch the sunrise

23.Hike

24.Graduate with my degree

25. Go to a movie alone

26. Read the Bible 

27.Learn archery 

28.See a musical

29.Let go of the past 

30.Meditate

31.Go see Statue of Liberty 

32.Go apple picking 

33.Find my soulmate