The title should speak for itself but you aren't a blogger with just a headline and nothing in the body of the post so here we go.
I have been a moody, miserable, bitch lately. Yes lately. Many are probably saying it's been like that forever but hey that's your opinion so go for it. I am not going to apologize for it. I would've hoped to have my life back after it being destroyed at 22, but unfortunately I now have to see a doctor in New York who is skilled in advanced endometriosis. I honestly love Dr. Kip and I am thankful for him everyday and he is a skilled surgeon but right now my endometriosis has taken over vital organs (I don't have too many of those left, LOL), and I need to figure out what to do. I am scared because I know what the outcome is and with the outcome faces many challenges financially and emotionally. I will do what I can to get my life back I am still somewhat young and I know I am a warrior and I must fight. It is just incredibly hard when I have to face the potential of being out of work unpaid and such. We don't pay into TDI and because I have a "pre-existing" condition I can't get TDI on my own. I know I am thankful to have parents that could help me out but I don't want them to. They do enough. So that's an issue weighing me down and the whole toll that surgery takes on the body. I have done well prior surgeries but I'm afraid for this one. I worry that my body won't handle it and the cat's will be homeless living on the street. So yes I will not apologize for being moody. It's tough because I don't take my pain meds, I try to handle it without it, and right now I can't eat without getting sick. So I know that meeting with Dr. Seckin may be my Hail Mary. So I'm not sorry for acting this way, this is my life..
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