Well here I am, one month down into the new year and I've managed to start it off in my usual fashion of getting sick. This time community acquired pneumonia, say that three times fast right? I've had pneumonia since I was a kid, that's when we found my allergy to Sulfa, so this is nothing new but this time feels worse that the time I was in the hospital for it. This also was the first time a nurse has ever blown a vein so that was quite interesting. I now have two very hardcore bruises on each forearms. I feel like me and my health is an ongoing battle so hey what's something else right? I swear I just want like one or two weeks of a medical break for my wallets sake.
Everything else seems to just be like groundhogs day; wake up, go to work, sleep, wash, rinse and repeat. Also trying to keep a long distance relationship afloat is never an easy task. Patience is something I have never been good at, and I will say it's been tested many times but I have been really patient and trusting the process of it all. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I just love this man so much that I put everything into it and I just am scared that it will combust before my eyes because nothing good in my life ever stays, it usually explodes before my eyes. And trust me I never settle, so this is huge for me. I also am afraid of it just being the way that it is and not pushing forward. I mean I can't be like how I was in my past waiting years and years with someone and it going no where. But time will tell and I just have to trust that God has a plan. It's scary to put someones life in someone else's hands but Jesus take the wheel.
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