It has been a minute since I have posted much. I have been trying to get me back and I fell into a bit of a depression for awhile, especially though the winter months. Work has been dragging me down to where I feel like I am never good enough and maybe after doing this for 10 years that this may not be the job for me because I am always shown my faults constantly. It is like I am always reminded of the bad rather than the good. I know deep down that isn't the case but I literally am drained when I leave. The one thing I will say is when I leave and go home I don't really take it with me I focus on what I have around me.
School has been challenging, my last class was a disaster, the professor was pretty strict. I am about 4 classes away from my Masters and I am glad to see the finish line. This was a lot of hard work and a lot of typing. I thought it would be easy, with a few papers here and there but it is way beyond that. Who knows where this will take me but no one can take a degree from you.
With all of that madness going on, I met someone. I was content with just being alone because let's face it, I have always been taking care of myself for the majority of my life. Then I met him. It was a bit of a random meeting, and I took a leap which for me it was hard because after my ex my walls were up and I didn't know if I could trust another human being. Things will never be perfect in life, but that isn't what I want or need. Things with my boyfriend is our type of perfectly imperfect. I mean he snores so loud I wear earplugs. He can't sit still for like longer than 20 minutes and he drives me nuts sometimes. But, those are the little things. What you don't see is the person that I could call at anytime and he'd be there for me, the one that poppy was on his shoulders and can boss him around. He also brings me flowers for no reason and doesn't hide anything. He is pretty much an open book. He is someone that came into my life at the most unexpected time and I couldn't love him any less than I do now. I hate when he has to leave but I do like not wearing ear plugs to sleep when he is away that's for sure! But honestly, God puts people in your life for a certain reason. I feel as though my exes were preparing me for what was to come. That maybe I wasn't ready for this all until now. One thing I can say is that if this is what love is really like, I think I am content.
Anyways, that's my life update for now..
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