Day in the life

As someone with a chronic illness, I figured I would give you all a little day in the life preview. On a workday I am up at 5, but to be honest I don't really get out of bed until 5:15 am. By that time the cats are hungry even though they have a full bowl of food and they are just dramatic half of the time. So they get their morning treats and I try and throw myself together. What I will say actually helps is laying out my clothes the night before so I am not trying to figure out what to wear last minute. I have a pretty good routine down but of course that can change when my endo decides to flare up like today for example. 

I hide the fact that I have these amazing dark circles under my eyes with a little tarte shape tape which is a God send!!! and my war paint aka foundation is just bare minerals. I am a very basic person. I used to not be like that at all. I would spend a good 1/2 an hour on my makeup, now, I am like cool I don't look sleepy or look like death. But I will say my hair is what I spend the most time on. The BEST hair appliance I ever splurged on was a dyson airwrap. As a former hairdresser, well still licensed, it is a game changer. I have a lot and I mean A LOT of hair so it takes me 10 minutes to give myself the perfect blowout. 

After putting my face on I sometimes make coffee. What is funny is that one day espresso is fine but the next day it can set your flare on fire. Today I went with a blueberry refresher from Dunkies with some avocado toast. Well I can tell you once I got into work my stomach started to flare. So this is a perfect picture of the raw and real version of what it is like. Luckily, I have good reliable people that I manage on my team so I will be leaving a bit early today to go home and rest. I will say rest is so important. I used to try and do it all and I would have to cancel plans with friends because I was so tired. I lost many friends along the way but it's their loss for not sticking by me. One piece of advice is listen to your body. That is so important. Your body is telling you something for a reason. I mean do I feel guilty and worthless when I listen to my body? of course. Again, I think that is why so many people have walked away from me. But I don't let those thoughts rent space in my head anymore.

On a day like today where my body is winning the fight, I will pick up some comfort food that is gentle on my poor body and put on my comfy pjs and snuggle with the cats. My wardrobe lately consists of comfy pjs lately and I am totally okay with that. There are the days where I feel like a worthless piece of garbage trust me on that. But what helps is surrounding yourself with people that understand. I don't know what i'd do without my parents, more so my mom. She has seen me at my worst so many times from literally picking me up off the floor when I was in pain, to helping me shower after surgeries because I was out of it. Family is everything. 

I am totally going off topic but this morning a coworker was talking about how thankful she was that she didn't have children because the way this world is. It really made me think that would I want this for my child? I know they would be okay to have a mom like me advocating for them but there are days that I wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy. I mean yes I really prayed to have children but I guess that wasn't in my life plan. For now I will be a cat mom and a pretty stellar Auntie.

Anyways back on track. As you can tell, every day is different when you have endometriosis. And I will leave it at that.