Brain on fire

 I have to blog about this movie on Netflix, brain on fire. I pretty much silently cried myself to sleep after watching it. It reminds me so much of battling Endometriosis. Having doctors think it’s IBS, or you are a drug seeker when you only function on Ibprofen. Or my pediatrician when I was a teenager telling my mom I was crazy. When the doctor told her that I know you are in there and I’m going to help you it really really made me just ache. I wish I knew what a normal functioning body feels like. There isn’t one day without pain. I feel like endometriosis is similar to the movie because my body is like slowly killing myself from the inside. Basically as they call it an invisible illness because people just don’t see it. If only they could and would understand. Even after a hysterectomy from my uterus that had endo, the doctor still found more endo years later. It won’t ever go away, there is no cure, no treatment to take it all away. So we- young girls and women are just trying to function daily and suffer in silence. So yeah I have a lot on my mind about that movie as it was incredible, however it just drained my soul. I’m so tired. There are days that I’d love to just give up but I’m hoping there is still some hope left. I feel like I am not in control of my body anymore and it sucks. So basically I’m just treading water right now hoping to not drown in a body that is failing and declining daily.